Expression

I've come to cherish my daily walks to and from school. They act as a buffer zone between a couple states of being. I have 10 minutes to ground and prepare myself for the activities of which I am about to partake. Do your best. Whatever you are going, take your whole heart with you, right? Gosh, that makes so much sense. Why has that been so challenging lately? Over-stimulation. Options, options, options. Potential.

Well, this particular morning, I found myself strutting along to Spearhead and, too, recently preoccupied with modes of expression, momentarily decided that Being is the best mode of self expression. Well, right, you say, of course. Artists often say that life is their artwork, that their artwork is their life. I think we often forget this. That our daily actions, DECISIONS, are our clearest self-expression. I don’t want to forget this. But what is being? I mean, what an ambiguous statement…But I would like to remind myself as often as needed (the point being that after some time or repetition, the need will diminish completely) that what I am doing is who I am. And what a silly thought: that I have to remind myself that! Well, I am not ashamed to say it…I forget sometimes that my being in the world is expressing who I am and my values…I do! But what better way to express yourself (ESPECIALLY simply for yourself) than acting how you want to? And don’t forget that that is what you are doing when you are living…expressing yourself. The way you treat people, the thoughts you have most frequently, the way you react to a situation, the song you sing in the shower in the morning, the bath you take the night before, the mid-day tea you drink, the letter you wrote for your sibling, the movie you chose to rent last week. Self-expression IS being alive and being alive is self-expression.
More to ponder:
The more deliberate, realized, intended an action/thought the more or less is it part of your personality…?