A day with importance

I feel that yesterday was a defining day. I don't think today blurs into it, in the perspective of the time line of my life. Nothing too, too drastic happened. Things just feel different.

My team played our first game in hat league last night: under the lights in the north end of Tacoma. It was a blast. Our team worked together very well, right off the bat, (what a saying), and were pretty encouraging. We lost by two after a soft cap was called because the lights were going off at 9:30, but we'll get um next time. For sure, we'll get um next time. To say the least, it's going to be a good season. And I'm excited for it.

<>Patrick beat me to the conversation that was needed. So, it got to be on his terms, which isn't surprising. This just means that we couldn't talk casually about how we've felt this last week and discuss our whole take on things WITHOUT coming to a conclusion that would change the whole basis of the relationship. So, in respect for him and his need for defined lines and resolution, things are concluded. A small part of me is sad for myself and him over what we will be missing out on, but more of me knows that I have a lot to pour my time and energy into right now that already excites me without having to put effort into getting enthused about it.
In a midnight shower I remembered a past conclusion that a lasting relationship for me will occur with a person I have been friends with already for a period of time, or someone I have gotten to know and feel close to without the expectation of an approaching relationship of THIS sort. I just realize that it takes me quite a while (at least it has in the past) to develop strong, caring, emotions for another under these conditions, and for me to prioritize their well being over my passions.

Anyway, the day ended quite well: warm shower, pajamas, couch, psych reading, homemade pumpkin pie…need I say more?